Hello fellow humans,
This blog documents my journey through anxiety and OCD, as a writer I found a great outlet through novel and poetry writing. I’ll also leave any tips or strategies I’ve learned along the way to help me cope, because we all need a little support sometimes, after all – we are all human.
With love, OCDgirl
Inhale
The weight of it allย skyscrapers that have burnt out their structuresย and mistaken my arched stiff neckย as something steady to lean on,ย but I am not steady,ย I am the vibration of a stringย minutes after it’s been struck,ย no sound, no purpose,ย but moving stillย as if I always must he is an exhaleย the windโฆ
Rise
When the mud feels like mud water,ย sweeping everything you thought you knew,ย you were, and the moment between what wasย and what will become is uncertain, too longย and unforgiving. Will you rise the other sideย as a survivor โ a warrior โ a broken memoryย of the beginning. Will you rise at all?ย Is there another side? An ending.
Twenty-two
Half bursting,half nothing,ย some mornings Iโm somethingand others Iโm not.How do I live all at oncebut feel as if Iโm not moving;Iโm striving, dancing, crying, beatingand this is not enough.I canโt be all of itย without dulling myself downโIโm white dust scattered into mudand soon enough theyโll seeIโm no more than this.I donโt know how to beย whenโฆ
Longing for before
the smile that rounded her faceย and crinkled her eyes, she hatedย being photographed laughingas the lines under her chin showed,but now these digitised pastsย are all that she has to rememberย the feeling of it. not that itโs possibleย to miss yourself, and if it wereย what would it feel like? nostalgic,ย regret, heartache, fraying? not thatitโs plausible, or understandable,ย to wantโฆ
The changes you bring
He never used to raise his voice, but now that youโre around he shoutswould have thought after all our battles at sea with you,ย that Iโd come to know it wasnโt me he was angry with, but you.But I donโt. I stand there, fingers dripping excess anxiety to the floorboardswith his voice echoing off the wallsโฆ
The importance of self-care
When was the last time you took some time for yourself? Have you ever planned to have a relaxing bath, pamper yourself or treat yourself to something but don’t get around to it because of outside factors, such as being too busy or worrying about finances? The thing is, those outside factors are always goingโฆ
Five tips for dealing with anxiety in the moment
Write it downTake note of how you are feeling by either noting down your anxiety levels/level of OCD activity or thoughts through a scale. For example a particularly anxious day for me I might rate as an eight, where as a day with not as many intrusive thoughts I would rate as a two. Ifโฆ
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